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Loving and missing

It's less than four weeks until my brother, Greg, married the love of his life, Debra Yourman. Our entire family has not been together in over two years - not since my dad's 60th birthday party (which was also my sister's baby shower, and Greg's 32nd birthday party - long story!). Anyway, I'm so excited to see everyone in a few weeks. Sometimes I forget how lonely I really am, until I'm around my family and realize how much I've missed them.

I especially realized this after visiting my brother Chris, his partner Toni, and my nephew Angelo in Washington last month. I feel like I miss out on so much in the lives of my family. I really wish I had it so I could visit even one of my siblings on a weekly basis, that would be the ideal situation. I don't know where Rich and I will wind up in life in 5 or 10 years. Heck, I don't even know if we'll ever even wind up with kids or not, but the more I think about what's important to me, the more I realize I'm not happy with the amount of family time I have in my life on either side (Luna or Marshall). Of course, it would suck to move ourselves in 5 years to be closer to my family just to have them get a job offer somewhere else and move.

I've been telling Rich alot lately (mostly in reaction to our inability to conceive, and my growing realization that having children does not equal having a family) that he IS my family. When I said my vows 8 years ago, that binded me to Richard for life, and he became my everything.

As much as I miss my parents, and my siblings and especially my niece and nephews, I have to remind myself that Rich and I are a unit, and it's up to us as a couple to decide what's right for us and we can't be dependent on others to bring us happiness or completion. It's us and God from here until we die, and that is perfectly ok with me. "Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken." Ecclesiates 4:12 (NIV)

I just pray I can take advantage of every moment I am blessed to be in the presence of my family, and continue to grow in relationship with them despite our distance. People knock facebook, but if it can be used to know what's going on in my family members' lives, I say good! But I should write more, call more, visit more... and getting some letters, phone calls and visits would be kind of cool too... Christmas 2011, book your tickets to Syracuse now! :)

So yeah... anyway... 27 days... a full weekend celebration... Luna/Yourman loud, loving, lunacy :) I can't wait!!