I love summer more than I usually let on. I used to complain about the heat and the bees, but each summer that passes I realize it’s actually a time for renewal. This time of year for Rich and I has become a combination of busyness and rest. Friends and family, vacation and trips, and this year is no different!
But in the past few years, summer has also coincided with pinnacle moments in our family-building journey.
Two years ago in July, I began my first cycle of fertility treatments and gave my testimony at church regarding how God has helped me get through my struggle with infertility: But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness... However, in the end the treatment was not successful and a difficult year of hormones, doctors appointments and blood work ensued..
Then a year ago in July, after our final treatment, we had our one and only pregnancy. With it came hope, joy and promise for 20 days before experiencing a devastating miscarriage at 6.5 weeks.
Now here we are, a year later with the warmth of July upon us again and about to embark on the next phase of our journey towards parenthood.
The past month or so Rich and I have been doing our due diligence, speaking with people who have had their lives affected by adoption in every respect. We have sat in on information sessions. Read books. Talked through our fears and concerns. I’ve made a pro and con list. Created spreadsheets comparing costs. I’ve tried to pray about it but the truth is God began speaking to us first before we even started asking the hard questions.
It’s quite apparent God’s hand is moving mightily so we can break through the excuses and see our opportunity to adopt and build our family is finally here.
We’re in the very early stages and there is a lot that has to happen for this to be successful and lead us to our child. But God has gotten us through difficult situations before and we have every reason to believe this will be no different. We will continue to hold on to what has gotten us through in the past:
“Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.” Hebrews 10:23
God IS faithful and I look forward to sharing more about our story and how that has been apparent. It is a beautiful and powerful story, and it is just beginning to unfold. One thing is for sure, it is wrapped in God’s abundant grace and love.
For now I’ll leave you with this:
Never give up hope. It’s what helps me wake in the morning. It’s what gets me to sleep at night. It’s what keeps me moving uphill when the mountain never seems to peak. It’s what reminds me that God is with me every step of the way. Jesus doesn’t just provide the hope of summer but also the hope of our family, the hope of our future, whether we become parents or not. Seek first the kingdom...
Have you had experiences in your life where you know God's work is at hand?