Escaping the Wilderness

A few months ago I wrote a blog but I didn’t publish it. Then about a month later I revised it and added to it but still didn’t publish it. I couldn’t bring myself to putting my heart out there for all to read. But yesterday, I had four people touch my large pregnant belly, and one person asked if me I ever thought I would be in this place… in my third trimester… less than three months away from giving birth to my baby… after years of trying to build our family.

That’s a story I will tell one day, but it has been a slow process to work through my experiences and emotions. Also it’s been a roller coaster the past 5-10 years, and the final turn is still up on the horizon. The ending is still not written yet, but with God’s will soon enough… soon enough…   

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An Epilogue

Today I did something I never thought I would do… I posted our pregnancy announcement on Facebook. 

For years, I cringed anytime I saw a pregnancy announcement. Anytime I saw a sonogram. Anytime I saw a baby bump. Anytime a woman was ecstatic with joy for getting pregnant after trying for less than a year without any intervention. I was jealous, bitter, angry and just plain annoyed. 

So I want to take this opportunity to speak to all the women and men who have gone through the same struggles as Rich and I have.

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We Believe in Miracles

It’s been a long while since I've written about our journey towards parenthood. 

The last update on our adoption fundraising site was over two months ago. We had just finished our final home study visit. There wasn’t much to do after that point but wait. Now that spring is here there have been some developments in our story we’d like to share.

We have some good news… and bad news… and good news… so let’s just dive right in. 

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